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There’s so much more about this smile. You just don’t know. This is the web portal of a fifteen-year-old feline who grew whiskers and paws. As much as she loves dwelling in her solemn, gloomy little own world – she is also thought to be a nonsensical and ill-mannered child who eats anything but food.

Yo. It’s Rachee.

Rachelle Angeli B. Marañon for short. HAHA. I love purple. I accept friends and comments. I laugh, I love, I shop, I cry. I do everything I want; I’m still young, wild and free. I know my boundaries, mistakes and flaws. I spill secrets. I’m bubbly. I’m not aiming for the perfect me but the better me. I do what’s right or maybe wrong, but I still make of it. I laugh at myself if I did something silly. I can control my temper and everything that should be controlled. Everyone knows that life is crazy but wonderful. It can be unfair, but not at all times. I can be your worst enemy or best friend. I am weird, but not that simple. I have realized something that I should have been realizing earlier, still seeking for true friends and for my knight in shining armour. Patiently waiting and I wish they’ll come sooner or later. I don’t believe at love at first sight, nor at times even at true love. Everyone has an individual ability to make a person happy, and I can make you happy, but sometimes I can make you cry. Some people hate me but I don’t mind them because they’re insecure. I take many pictures. I had swollen my pride; my past memories are still treasured. You are welcome in my heart and I swore I won’t forget you. Keep that curve on your face; keep smiling!

Xoxo,
Gossip Girl

♥ Rachee

cyber diary

11/19/2010

Friday, November 19, 2010

11/19/2010

Huhu's and Haha's

At last, I learned my lesson.

Card day, or like most of the students would call “dooms day” was finished. Got a satisfactory rank, good enough to prevent myself from the terror of my parents anger, but unfortunately insufficient to impress them, or just even to make them pleased. Oh well, I kind of get used to it. Even if how high my grade was, they don’t hell care, well, the ranking, they really give much attention with. Do they really expect me to be a genius? Oh common! I can’t even pass our school publication’s screening. And yes, I already accepted that fact. I did over react at first; I just anticipated that I’ll get in. Obviously, I’m wrong. Well, I wasn’t good enough. I understand that.

Back to my parents.. They just expect too much from me, and as always, I continuously disappoint them. I’ll always be a disappointment for them. A daughter they wish they never had. Ouch, isn’t it? I wish they heard the saying, “No expectations, no disappointments”, my life would be a lot easier.

I can’t believe I’m saying this now, but yes, I’m really thankful that I have my friends, real friends now, not “frenemies” to accompany me today. After the non-ending clash, backstabbing, heart-to-heart talks, and posting so much stuff hitting each other at Facebook ( visit our page, you’ll know everything about our latest feud. ) after a long time, we are now at peace with each other, childish acts no more.

And I’m really proud of them! Almost all of them got into the honor list in their respective classes. And not only they are active in academics, but also in extracurricular too! One of them got gold at her sport, and the other also won in her singing contest. And there’s more, one of them is going to compete on Monday, in dance sport, hope she’ll win. I just wish her the best of luck.

Honestly, I always get jealous to some of them. They may not be perfect, but they are like so close to one. Has a high IQ, can grove, can kick someone’s ass, loved by everybody, positive thinker, and most of all, has the best love life among all of us, with an almost perfect partner too.

But nowadays, I realized, jealousy will lead you to nothing. It will eventually result to another conflict among us, and even decrease your self-esteem. So, what’s the use? No matter how hard you try, you can’t be like them, and if maybe you’ll be lucky to be close enough, you will still remain as a wanna be. A second rate copycat. You’ll just degrade yourself, and you’ll become an underdog. Trust me, it really sucks.

Also, just be yourself, God has specific plans for you. Wait until the right time occurs, and soon that caterpillar inside you will then breed into a butterfly, not just a simple but an exquisite one. The kind who will soar high, prove everyone who discriminated her that they were all wrong, that amidst all those failures, downfall, and discouragement, she can become somebody.

Just remember: No matter what life throws to you, there will always be a reason why. Everything has a purpose, right? And most of the time, it’s for your own good. Drop all those complaints about this and that, just look to the sunny side of everything. And most importantly, trust Him. And sooner or later you’ll find the path to the right way you’ve been waiting.

Sorry, If I jump from one topic to another. It’ll take forever if I discuss them one by one, and I’m too lazy to write that long, my writing mood switched off. Eh? Haha. And there will be too much drama. I really don’t like it nowadays. Well, thanks for wasting your time reading one of my useless post ( especially this, because it’s too personal) Haha. ;) Keep Smiling!

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