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There’s so much more about this smile. You just don’t know. This is the web portal of a fifteen-year-old feline who grew whiskers and paws. As much as she loves dwelling in her solemn, gloomy little own world – she is also thought to be a nonsensical and ill-mannered child who eats anything but food.

Yo. It’s Rachee.

Rachelle Angeli B. Marañon for short. HAHA. I love purple. I accept friends and comments. I laugh, I love, I shop, I cry. I do everything I want; I’m still young, wild and free. I know my boundaries, mistakes and flaws. I spill secrets. I’m bubbly. I’m not aiming for the perfect me but the better me. I do what’s right or maybe wrong, but I still make of it. I laugh at myself if I did something silly. I can control my temper and everything that should be controlled. Everyone knows that life is crazy but wonderful. It can be unfair, but not at all times. I can be your worst enemy or best friend. I am weird, but not that simple. I have realized something that I should have been realizing earlier, still seeking for true friends and for my knight in shining armour. Patiently waiting and I wish they’ll come sooner or later. I don’t believe at love at first sight, nor at times even at true love. Everyone has an individual ability to make a person happy, and I can make you happy, but sometimes I can make you cry. Some people hate me but I don’t mind them because they’re insecure. I take many pictures. I had swollen my pride; my past memories are still treasured. You are welcome in my heart and I swore I won’t forget you. Keep that curve on your face; keep smiling!

Xoxo,
Gossip Girl

♥ Rachee

cyber diary

11/27/2010

Saturday, November 27, 2010

11/27/2010

What will happen in the afterlife?

There's this days when I go to sleep wishing that I won't wake up the next morning. Just hoping that this feeling will come to a stop. I lay in my bed with the lights off, everything pitch black. The only things present in the room are my thoughts and I. I lay and stare at the ceiling and think about how everyone would be better off without me. How no one would truly miss me if I was gone. I even think about what would happen to me in the after life. Would I be a ghost? Would I still be able to watch the people I love? - Or is this just it? Do you just die and are literally non-existent as the whole world still functions? I'm not really sure. I wonder who would show up to my funeral. Would the people I used to be close with but drifted away show up out of respect? - Or would it just be my family? Have I even impacted someone enough to make them feel torn and as if they've lost a part of their lives now that I'm not here? With all these thoughts running through my head I somehow eventually manage to fall asleep, only to find myself waking up the next morning. Sometimes disappointed, sometimes thankful.

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