There’s so much more about this smile. You just don’t know. This is the web portal of a fifteen-year-old feline who grew whiskers and paws. As much as she loves dwelling in her solemn, gloomy little own world – she is also thought to be a nonsensical and ill-mannered child who eats anything but food.
Yo. It’s Rachee.
Rachelle Angeli B. Marañon for short. HAHA. I love purple. I accept friends and comments. I laugh, I love, I shop, I cry. I do everything I want; I’m still young, wild and free. I know my boundaries, mistakes and flaws. I spill secrets. I’m bubbly. I’m not aiming for the perfect me but the better me. I do what’s right or maybe wrong, but I still make of it. I laugh at myself if I did something silly. I can control my temper and everything that should be controlled. Everyone knows that life is crazy but wonderful. It can be unfair, but not at all times. I can be your worst enemy or best friend. I am weird, but not that simple. I have realized something that I should have been realizing earlier, still seeking for true friends and for my knight in shining armour. Patiently waiting and I wish they’ll come sooner or later. I don’t believe at love at first sight, nor at times even at true love. Everyone has an individual ability to make a person happy, and I can make you happy, but sometimes I can make you cry. Some people hate me but I don’t mind them because they’re insecure. I take many pictures. I had swollen my pride; my past memories are still treasured. You are welcome in my heart and I swore I won’t forget you. Keep that curve on your face; keep smiling!
Everything I write are the things I'm scared to say out loud. Everything I say never comes close to what I really feel. Everything I feel can never actually be explained. It's like an endless cycle of mixed emotions I'll never know how to clarify to anyone, not even myself.
There I was sitting alone waiting for the rainbow. Everybody was looking forward to the upcoming storm like it’s the next best thing. It’s a legitimate excuse not to go to work or school, because storm is coming. Regardless, I always look forward to seeing rainbow.
Drinking my cup of chocolate, checking whether some of my internet ads worked for me and looking at everyone and wondering what they’re thinking. You know the amazing thing about caring for the right things, is not caring about the wrong things. I know, maybe you had that one figured out early.
I like looking at people, besides the fact that I love smiling at them. You know it’s so hard to fake happiness when people are so accustomed to your smile. I like looking at strangers, maybe because I just like looking at things. I know that’s weird but I want you know that I have good intentions with it.
I want to write something about someone but I can’t put into words how I’m going to describe him to you. And I don’t intend to describe him in a physical way, because I’m not that type of girl. I’ll just describe how he makes me feel. You ever felt that sudden care for someone, regardless whether he cares for you the same way. You just want to care for him and let him know you genuinely feel that way. So that if the time comes when he feels like nobody cares, he’ll remember you. I see a consistency on people nowadays feeling like that. And it’s sad because I care a lot and if I can just give a little piece of my care to everyone, I hope nobody ever feels that way, again.
I guess it’s been a while since I’ve written to you. I apologize for my poor sentence construction but the rain is making me feel melodramatic and I feel like writing.
Cry out everything you have to cry about! When we get hurt, it’s normal (and good) to cry. Don’t ever think you’re being weak for crying and don’t feel embarrassed because of it! It’s normal and it’s good! When you cry, you let go of part of your anger and hurt so you can feel less heavy. You can lock yourself in a room, if you want to, and put on some sad music but let yourself feel the pain and cry so you can let it go. The main thing here is: Get rid of the pain! Just let her go!
Step 2
Get busy! When you’re trying to get someone out of your head, you need to put other things inside of it. In other words…get busy! It doesn't matter how, you just need to get distracted. Go to a movie, watch a play, travel. It doesn’t matter what are you going to do—the important thing is to find something to do. Find a hobby, find something you enjoy doing, something to keep your mind busy. If your mind is busy, it doesn't have time or space to think about the person you’re trying to forget.
Step 3
Spend some time with your friends. Friends are always great to have in this kind of situation! Friends can make you feel good about yourself and get you distracted very easily. They will certainly make you laugh and make you see that you’re way more important than you think! The only warning is: Ask them not to talk about the person you’re trying to forget. If they start bringing the topic up in every conversation, you won’t be able to forget, and instead of making you laugh, they’re going to make you cry. So be honest and ask them not to talk about it!
Step 4
Avoid the person! Try not to go to places you know you can meet that person. When you’re trying to forget someone and you two keep seeing each other, it gets hard to get over it. If you meet him/her somewhere, just be nice and kind, but find an excuse to go away as fast as you can! If you work or study with him/her and you can’t avoid seeing him/her, just try not to look and not to talk too much. Just be gentle and keep busy all the time so you won’t have excuses to look at him/her or to chat.
Step 5
Go out and see some different faces! Being at home gives you more time to think about it, which makes the process even more difficult. So even if you’re not feeling excited or you’re in a bad mood, just put on your best clothes, best shoes, best smile, call some friends and go somewhere nice where you can dance, drink, listen to some music. And the most important: See some different faces! When you go out, you notice that the person you’re trying to forget is not the only one who’s got a perfect smile and an amazing voice.
Step 6
Take good care of yourself. Women tend to run for some kind of self-destruction when they’re hurt. If we break up our perfect relationship, then we have no reason to get our nails done anymore and the only thing that gives us comfort is chocolate and sugar. That way, the only thing we do is to become less attractive and lessen our self-confidence. So if you’re hurt, just try to use your pain for yourself instead of against you. Go to the gym, work out a lot, get your nails and hair done. Do whatever you can so you can feel more pretty and confident!
Step 7
Accept the process! You can be really strong and it’s still going to hurt. The process takes time and you have to accept that! You can’t hope to forget in 2 days someone you loved for 2 years and you can’t pretend to be strong if you feel like crying. Just face your pain and accept that it’s not easy and it’s going to take some time. When you’re patient with yourself and your situation, things tend to get easier.
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