There’s so much more about this smile. You just don’t know. This is the web portal of a fifteen-year-old feline who grew whiskers and paws. As much as she loves dwelling in her solemn, gloomy little own world – she is also thought to be a nonsensical and ill-mannered child who eats anything but food.
Yo. It’s Rachee.
Rachelle Angeli B. Marañon for short. HAHA. I love purple. I accept friends and comments. I laugh, I love, I shop, I cry. I do everything I want; I’m still young, wild and free. I know my boundaries, mistakes and flaws. I spill secrets. I’m bubbly. I’m not aiming for the perfect me but the better me. I do what’s right or maybe wrong, but I still make of it. I laugh at myself if I did something silly. I can control my temper and everything that should be controlled. Everyone knows that life is crazy but wonderful. It can be unfair, but not at all times. I can be your worst enemy or best friend. I am weird, but not that simple. I have realized something that I should have been realizing earlier, still seeking for true friends and for my knight in shining armour. Patiently waiting and I wish they’ll come sooner or later. I don’t believe at love at first sight, nor at times even at true love. Everyone has an individual ability to make a person happy, and I can make you happy, but sometimes I can make you cry. Some people hate me but I don’t mind them because they’re insecure. I take many pictures. I had swollen my pride; my past memories are still treasured. You are welcome in my heart and I swore I won’t forget you. Keep that curve on your face; keep smiling!
Sometimes it just takes a moment for everything to happen. You won’t get respect in just one day, you can’t be in love with someone that you just met, and you won’t be able to forgive yourself in a second. I’ve learned that helping people is good, but helping someone too much won’t let them grow. You grow by making mistakes, getting hurt, and learning from your regrets. Thoughts are there to help guide you to your decision. It’s you that has to take the first step into the pathway of happiness. It’s your doing that makes you who you are. Don’t assume, get your facts straight. That’s what messes a lot of people up. There’s always the true story and reasoning behind everything. We are all different, but have one thing in common, we all want happiness. It’s like we’re all trying to fight for it, trying to getwhat we want and it makes us forget the whole reason why we wanted it in the first place. Nobody said life is going to be easy. Life is what you make of it. Change for the better, don’t change for someone else, change for yourself. Don’t be selfish. Don’t limit yourself from doing things just because you don’t think you can make it through. Remember, time isn’t going to wait for you, so make the best of it.
"Are there any significant experiences you have had, accomplishments you have realized, that has helped define you as a person?"
Aristotle once said, "Knowing oneself is the beginning of all sagaciousness." Thus, knowing oneself is the foundation of personal magnification, the commencement of an individual to fully acquire the essence of life. Being acquainted with yourself is not accomplished by merely visually examining your reflection as you stand in front of a full-length mirror, but is gradually acquired, as yourself, your very own mentor, teaches you every aspect of it.
As a teenager, I could not disavow nor escape the fact that I am also in the middle of knowing myself and knowing the world. Knowing in a sense of learning through my challenges in life, achievements, failures and learning through my relationship with God and with others. Teenage life is indeed a tough part, for the reason that I get to visually perceive a clearer view of life - which is not about any of my childhood dreams and happy endings but it is about the reality that, without a doubt, it is a rollercoaster ride of muddled up sentiments, unreturned perplexities and caught up thrash about.
I find it hard to succumb to slumber, though the downpour of rain should've alleviated it. My insanity level roamed up high, misery went up to me, my hazelnut orbs turned red for crying, as I contemplate profoundly and once asked God. "Do you really play equality and fairness to all of your creation? If yes, then why can't you grant my desire, to be in the highest section of our school were I did my very best just to be in it?" It is indeed a blasphemous act to question God with such a preposterous reason, but I was in the agony of disappointment, lost in the labyrinth for I was puzzled. After some time, I promised to myself that I have something more to prove and took it as a challenge.
As a dynamic figure enrolled in a quaint educational institution, my life as a student doesn't differ from anyone. A hectic schedule, loads of exams, terror teachers and competitive classmates. To sum up all of these, it is what you call pressure but this doesn't hinder me from pursuing my personal goals. Through my perseverance and determination, I got promoted.
To encapsulate everything, I have come to a realization that life isn't always about being on top but it is about how you make it to be on top. Failure is indeed unequivocally inevitably ineluctable, but how you take it, is up to you. For me failures are just stones in my shoe, I pause for a while and remove them, but they don't hinder me from walking forward. If we contemplate the old verbal expression, "Is the cup half empty or half full?", which is an perfect analogy of how we perceive and visually examine things. I learned that ups and downs are the ones that makes your life's journey more worthwhile. Every experience I encounter, may it be bad or good, plays an immensely colossal role in moulding my figure into a better one and helped me knowing myself. This may not be the pinnacle of knowing myself but with the help of my family, friends and especially God, sooner I will.
"Success is often the result of taking misstep in the right direction."
Life changing. From the books you read. Seriously, Looking for Alaska saved my life and I’ll be forever thankful for John Green. Then there was moment when you start scrolling on your Phone Book. You looked through all your friend’s contact number but can’t seem to have the courage to tell anyone what’s wrong. Sometimes even though you have a lot of friends, you still feel alone.
So you decided to call a stranger. And just when you’re about to give up on humanity, he turned out to be the best thing about that day. He didn’t even ask you what your problem was. He just made you eat steak. And for some people, food always make a little difference. And he starts telling you things about dealing with problems.
Yes, you can cry. You can pour your heart out, drink all the alcohol in the world but at some point you need to stop and start living again. Bad things happen to us not kill us, not to make us suffer, but to make us realize what life’s really about. And it is always to forgive. To forgive yourself and forgive the people around you, especially those who have caused you a great amount of pain. You can’t be stuck in a problem, you need to find a solution. Because if you dwell on a problem, it becomes a bigger problem, and you won’t even notice that the world is already crushing around you. So you have to move. You have to get out of that state.
Everything serves a lesson. You can’t keep questioning why things happen. You have to ask yourself, “Now, what do I have to do about it?”. And of course, you might think of ways on how to get your revenge back. But I’m telling you, it’s not how it works. You are a good person, I know that. You should be the better person as well. The more you become vulnerable to your feelings, (you don’t have to Facebook status everything you feel), you should never let your guards down. Never ever.
Probably the best time to focus on yourself. Focus on the things that make you happy. The things you want to do. You don’t rely on other people for your own happiness. It’s a mood, not a gift. You have the power to be happy and nobody should take that away from you.
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