There’s so much more about this smile. You just don’t know. This is the web portal of a fifteen-year-old feline who grew whiskers and paws. As much as she loves dwelling in her solemn, gloomy little own world – she is also thought to be a nonsensical and ill-mannered child who eats anything but food.
Yo. It’s Rachee.
Rachelle Angeli B. Marañon for short. HAHA. I love purple. I accept friends and comments. I laugh, I love, I shop, I cry. I do everything I want; I’m still young, wild and free. I know my boundaries, mistakes and flaws. I spill secrets. I’m bubbly. I’m not aiming for the perfect me but the better me. I do what’s right or maybe wrong, but I still make of it. I laugh at myself if I did something silly. I can control my temper and everything that should be controlled. Everyone knows that life is crazy but wonderful. It can be unfair, but not at all times. I can be your worst enemy or best friend. I am weird, but not that simple. I have realized something that I should have been realizing earlier, still seeking for true friends and for my knight in shining armour. Patiently waiting and I wish they’ll come sooner or later. I don’t believe at love at first sight, nor at times even at true love. Everyone has an individual ability to make a person happy, and I can make you happy, but sometimes I can make you cry. Some people hate me but I don’t mind them because they’re insecure. I take many pictures. I had swollen my pride; my past memories are still treasured. You are welcome in my heart and I swore I won’t forget you. Keep that curve on your face; keep smiling!
Holding on is being brave, but letting go and moving on is often what makes us stronger and happier.Here are ten signs it’s time to let go:
1.Someone expects you to be someone you’re not. – Don’t change who you are for anyone else. It’s wiser to lose someone over being who you are, than to keep them by being someone you’re not. Because it’s easier to mend a broken heart, than it is to piece together a shattered identity. It’s easier to fill an empty space in your life where someone else used to be, than it is to fill the empty space inside yourself where YOU used to be. 2.A person’s actions don’t match their words. – Everybody deserves somebody who helps them look forward to tomorrow. If someone has the opposite effect on you, because they are consistently inconsistent and their actions don’t match up with their words, it’s time to let them go. It’s always better to be alone than to be in bad company. True friendship is a promise made in the heart – silent, unwritten, unbreakable by distance, and unchangeable by time. Don’t listen to what people say; watch what they do. Your true friends will slowly reveal themselves over time. 3.You catch yourself forcing someone to love you. – Let us keep in mind that we can’t force anyone to love us. We shouldn’t beg someone to stay when they want to leave. That’s what love is all about – freedom. However, the end of love is not the end of life. It should be the beginning of an understanding that love sometimes leaves for a reason, but never leaves without a lesson. If someone truly loves you, they will never give you a reason to doubt it. Anyone can come into your life and say how much they love you, but it takes someone really special to stay in your life and prove how much they love you. Sometimes it takes awhile to find the right person, but the right person is always worth the wait. 4.An intimate relationship is based strictly on physical attraction. – Being beautiful is more than how many people you can get to look at you, or how others perceive you at a single glance. It’s about what you live for. It’s about what defines you. It’s about the depth of your heart, and what makes you unique. It’s about being who you are and living out your life honestly. It’s about those little quirks that make you, you. People who are only attracted to you because of your pretty face or nice body won’t stay by your side forever. But the people who can see how beautiful your heart is will never leave you. 5.Someone continuously breaks your trust. – Love means giving someone the chance to hurt you, but trusting them not to. When you completely trust a person, without any doubt, you’ll automatically get one of two results - a FRIEND for life or a LESSON for life. Either way there’s a positive outcome. Either you confirm the fact that this person cares about you, or you get the opportunity to weed them out of your life and make room for those who do. In the end you’ll discover who’s fake, who’s true, and who would risk it all for you. And trust me, some people will totally surprise you. 6.Someone continuously overlooks your worth. – Know your worth! When you give yourself to someone who doesn’t respect you, you surrender pieces of your soul that you’ll never get back. There comes a point when you have to let go and stop chasing some people. If someone wants you in their life, they’ll find a way to put you there. Sometimes you just need to let go and accept the fact that they don’t care for you the way you care for them. Let them leave your life quietly. Letting go is oftentimes easier than holding on. We think it’s too hard to let go, until we actually do. Then we ask ourselves, “Why didn’t I do this sooner?” 7.You are never given a chance to speak your mind. – Sometimes an argument saves a relationship, whereas silence breaks it. Speak up for your heart so that you won’t have regrets. Life is not about making others happy. Life is about being honest and sharing your happiness with others. 8.You are frequently forced to sacrifice your happiness.– If you allow people to make more withdrawals than deposits in your life, you will be out of balance and in the negative before you know it. Know when to close the account. It’s always better to be alone with dignity than in a relationship that constantly requires you to sacrifice your happiness and self-respect. 9.You truly dislike your current situation, routine, job, etc. – It’s better to be a failure at something you love than to succeed at doing something you hate. Don’t let someone who gave up on their dreams talk you out of going after yours. The best thing you can do in life is follow your heart. Take risks. Don’t just make the safe and easy choices because you’re afraid of what might happen. If you do, nothing will ever happen. Chances must be taken, mistakes must be made, and lessons must be learned. It might be an uphill climb, but when you reach that mountaintop it will be worth every ounce of blood, sweat and tears you put into it. 10.You catch yourself obsessing over, and living in, the past. – Eventually you will overcome the heartache, and forget the reasons you cried, and who caused the pain. Eventually you will realize that the secret to happiness and freedom is not about control or revenge, but in letting things unfold naturally, and learning from your experiences over the course of time. After all, what matters most is not the first, but the final chapter of your life, which unveils the details of how well you wrote your story. So let go of the past, set yourself free, and open your mind to the possibility of new relationships and priceless experiences. And the one thing you should never let go of is hope. Remember what you deserve and keep pushing forward. Someday all the pieces will come together. Unimaginably good things will transpire in your life, even if everything doesn’t turn out exactly the way you had anticipated. And you will look back at the times that have passed, smile, and ask yourself, “How did I get through all of that?”
I’m a big fan of predictably happy. A few years ago, this would have never been the case. I have to admit: it’s a relief to see that my preferences have changed along with me.
Predictably happy guys smile. That’s their thing. They set you at ease because they don’t make you feel the need to set up any sort of pretense. They’re not hung up on unnecessary drama. They have absolutely no intention of exploiting any sort of agenda. Ultimately, they’re just naturally good-natured.
And that is something I find strangely attractive.
I’m an anomaly in a world that falls over the tall brooding enigma. I think I’m old enough to know that I don’t want to be with someone because of their magnetic emotional complexities.
I want to be with someone because of their warmth. I want to be drawn in by an easiness, a simplicity; by a persona that actually wants to be figured out. Someone who will eagerly engage in conversation – and, more importantly, in life! – with me. I want banter and verbal chemistry and the chance to be wooed by a smile that can embrace me in something that feels a lot like home.
And I want that for always.
Not just when it’s convenient. Not just when their day is good. Not just because there’s a camera pointed at their face. I want the promise of a smile for always. There’s nothing more pleasant than facing the absurdities of life with someone whose got the disposition of a sunbeam. Not unreasonable unnatural happiness but a chronic real and lasting kind that probably only exists in a person who is confident in who they are.
“What I need is the dandelion in the spring. The bright yellow that means rebirth instead of destruction. The promise that life can go on, no matter how bad our losses. That it can be good again. And only Peeta can give me that.” (Suzanne Collins, Mockingjay)
The last and most important slice of the pie that is my heart: if you take me back to what true goodness is then I’m pretty sure that I will just about fall in love with you for good.
It’s not about holding doors open or buying nice gifts; not about being active in your local church or the ability to throw a compliment my way whenever my bruised ego needs a fix. Those things are wonderful but they’re also the external trappings of fleeting romance.
I want heart and soul – your capacity to extend grace, forgiveness, compassion and, the most endearing quality of all: kindness. A man’s ability to spend and invest his love on everyone, to go above and beyond without prejudice, without any sort of selfish ambition, is probably the only thing I’d actually pray for with intention because of the rarity of its nature. Heart, I believe, is the only real standard. The only thing in the world that truly lasts.
It is this indestructible quality of good character that will undoubtedly tip the odds of me liking you in your favor – chances are, for a very long time. Though my type may have evolved dramatically over the years, this one right here is the one that I think will actually stay and persist. I know it sounds crazy, and I don’t know if such a man actually exists, but I’d like to believe that if I can dream him up in my head then his real-life counterpart may not be too far off.
The odds and I have never had a very good relationship but I believe whole-heartedly that the tides can change, that fate favors people who dream audaciously, and that the best is real. But more importantly, that the best – even at this moment – is already on its way.
This is how someone becomes the person they want to be. They make changes. They stop taking those pills, clutching those drinks, and start deleting those numbers in their phone that might as well be daggers. They take responsibility for themselves. This might sound so minor but something you all must know by now is that we’re often our own worst enemy. We can’t blame something on a lack of self-awareness. We’re all aware, which makes it that much harder when we see ourselves making the same mistakes. We often wonder why we do the things we do. But we already know why. Knowing and doing are two different things though. I know that x, y, and z make me unhappy but I guess, in the end, I just don’t care enough to make changes. You can’t force yourself to care. You need to reach a point where you DO care which can take a long time.
But once you do reach it, there’s no going back. Being a broken mess is a blast at 15 but once you’re old enough to know better and start to make those necessary changes, returning to that state will feel awful. That’s something to actually mourn. There’s a certain kind of beauty with being reckless with your body and mind. Closing the chapter on that and actively becoming the person you’re going to be feels great but it’s also a tad bittersweet. Sometimes you want to go back to being the person you were before all the bad stuff happened, but you know that’s impossible. So you just bid adieu to that time and look towards your future. (FYI, it looks super bright.)
You need someone in your life who excites you, makes you nervous, and forces you to question what you think you already know. These usually come in the form of a crush or a relationship. A relationship is obviously ideal but a crush can tide you over like a nice appetizer. We spend so much of our time feeling jaded and set in our ideas, and that’s clearly not a fun way to exist. We pretend it is but deep down it feels a little miserable because we don’t want to know all the answers. We want someone who’s challenging, who we can’t figure out, and can tell us that we’re full of crap. We need someone to get us off the internet and remind us that real life is much more fun. And it’s okay to be unsure and nervous because that just means we’re alive again.
There is something I like about holding hands. Especially done unexpectedly. Like walking and suddenly he grabs your hand so he can get closer to you, or just make sure you’re close by. I always notice the little details about everything. Like the first time someone tries to hold your hand, and he looks at you. There’s always something about that stare. I don’t know but it’s just a fleeting moment. Like the whole universe conspired for your hands to intertwined. Not to be melodramatic or anything. I just like holding hands, and I want to put into words how lovely it feels. And I failed. I can’t write about it, I can’t find the right words to explain how you made me feel the first time you tried holding my hand, even though it was for a brief second, I just want you to know that I remembered, especially how you made me feel.
A lot of things happened, and the first quarter of the year will be over soon. If there’s one thing I can say about those 3 months, I am glad that I’m stronger now, and wiser. The things that happened to me made me only realized that I should love myself above all rest, and not to let anyone snatch me out from my dreams and visions.
I am happy. Indeed. I may have lost a lot, but I gained a bigger appreciation on the things that I have right now. And I think that’s more important.
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