There’s so much more about this smile. You just don’t know. This is the web portal of a fifteen-year-old feline who grew whiskers and paws. As much as she loves dwelling in her solemn, gloomy little own world – she is also thought to be a nonsensical and ill-mannered child who eats anything but food.
Yo. It’s Rachee.
Rachelle Angeli B. Marañon for short. HAHA. I love purple. I accept friends and comments. I laugh, I love, I shop, I cry. I do everything I want; I’m still young, wild and free. I know my boundaries, mistakes and flaws. I spill secrets. I’m bubbly. I’m not aiming for the perfect me but the better me. I do what’s right or maybe wrong, but I still make of it. I laugh at myself if I did something silly. I can control my temper and everything that should be controlled. Everyone knows that life is crazy but wonderful. It can be unfair, but not at all times. I can be your worst enemy or best friend. I am weird, but not that simple. I have realized something that I should have been realizing earlier, still seeking for true friends and for my knight in shining armour. Patiently waiting and I wish they’ll come sooner or later. I don’t believe at love at first sight, nor at times even at true love. Everyone has an individual ability to make a person happy, and I can make you happy, but sometimes I can make you cry. Some people hate me but I don’t mind them because they’re insecure. I take many pictures. I had swollen my pride; my past memories are still treasured. You are welcome in my heart and I swore I won’t forget you. Keep that curve on your face; keep smiling!
We are all trying to desperately to hold on to something that isn’t there anymore
Always had a trouble letting people go, instead I wait for them to finally let me go. It’s either I’m too naive or too forgiving, because the moment they apologize, I let them back in. So I beg that they let me go, or tell them straightforwardly that if they could do me a favor and just you know, just let me go. I think it’s even harder to do, because you know that you really want me to stay but it just hurts so much. Everything with them is just so painful, and because you can’t fathom the thought of leaving them, you wait for them to leave you. For me, that’s just about the saddest quality I have.
5/12/2012
Saturday, May 12, 2012
5/12/2012
The consistency of being inconsistent
So you put your heart out there. Even though you've got yourself broken so many times, it doesn’t make you less of a human not to feel the slightest affection towards another human being. But you know, sometimes it just ends up being ugly. Especially, if you’re really showing the person how much you care about them. They start to change.
Truth is, once people get a hold of what they want, they can easily take you for granted. I never wish to be that kind of person. I was always the “more” type. And when I like you, I really make you feel that I like you. I don’t hide behind the bush or play nonsense mindless games.
I always think that there’s a reason people come in our lives and if you value them so much, you have to make them feel that way. I’m not scared of my emotions, I can control them. The only thing I can’t control is when people start to be inconsistent when I’m trying to be very consistent about how I feel.
At the end of it all, I have no regrets. I pour my heart out for you, and you just gave it back to me, with broken hopes and promises. I did everything.. but I guess it will never be enough. Especially, if I have to replace someone who will always have a bigger hold in your heart.
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